An Update from Rivendell
With only 24 days left before our planned induction, I find my initial thoughts on the complications of rest in a time of anxious anticipation completely on target. In the quiet of the day when there is nothing to do but think, I am confronted with the reality of what is before us. The feeling settles like a melancholic stone in the stomach- it is a combination of fear and a sense of entrapment that can make the strongest spirit wither. Of course, there are parts of each day which are filled with fun and laughter and I hold on to those beautiful spots the way a social-media-crazed teenager clings to their smart phone, but the depth of emotion is found in the quiet spots when I am confronted by the stark reality that, very soon, I will have to watch my infant son be wheeled into an OR to be split open and rewired for his very survival. This act and all the emotions I already deeply feel surrounding this future inevitability strikes me at my very core. Like Frodo's wound from the bat...